Of the Heart and of the Mind. Three point one four one five nine.
Friday, August 29, 2003
Geez! I'm *sure* I'd be stressing, and would have been most of the day, if I haven't been SO BUSY today! I'm only realizing now because it's the first time I've had that I've had to wait for something to finish and I've had nothing else really to do...
I wanted to leave for MA just after 4pm today, but as we can all see, I dind't make it. Still had work I needed to get done her at work.
Then there was the whole "My new bank's debit card still hasn't arrived in the mail, and I was supposed to have it on Monday, and my old bank account is down to $1.60-ish and I have no actual cash of my own! There's plenty of money in my new account, but I can't get to it while I'm away without the debit card and because I'm running out of started checks! (Not that many places even accept starter checks)."
But, at least I managed to get my Aunt & Unlce's Grand Caravan last night, and get its way overdue oil change this morning (even though that did make me even later for work. I was already late to begin with trying to finish up my packing and spending a snippit of quality time with my cousins who are in from DC with their 1.5 year old son!)
So, hopefully I'll be one my way soon... very soon would be better! Though at this point I'll probably run into traffic... :p
And just as a note of something very random on this whole adventure I'm about to go on: I'm picking up the U-Haul trailer (I HOPE they have one available for me, oh God PLEASE?!) in Utica, NY! Lol, just gonna stop in and get it tomorrow as I pass by. :)
OH! That reminds me! I have to call them to find out the final details on that by 7!! Wish me luck *crosses fingers*
Wednesday, August 27, 2003
I can't get anything to download, chat program wise, onto this computer. Like, seriously, apparently you have to get permission from the lab monitor, and I'm slightly scared of them. So, no go, disafourtunadadmente. I'll figure out something, but I've always had a problem with asking anything with strange authority figures, and here, the Lab Monitors are the authority figures.
Wednesday, August 20, 2003
Great news, the library computers don't allow the use of chat things, IM's, etc, but the Lab computers do, and my computer course means I have lab access, any time. How Nifty! Now I can chat w/ me mejor amigos todos los dias cuando yo no en los clases. Okay, garbled spanish, slipped into it. I miss you Jen, I'm sorry I haven't been around to talk to you much lately, and I'm glad you saved the replies.
So it's a very good thing I saved my replies when I did, because not 24 hours later the tag board hosting people took down the tag boards for renovations! I don't know if they're going to keep all the stuff that was in all the tag boards saved for when the boards come back online, but I just feel great for doing what I did when I did. Almost makes you belive in foresight... Oh wait, I already do! ;)
Monday, August 18, 2003
I've decided I want to save what I feel are my important replies to a very important friend's blogs. So here's my first set before they dissapper off her little tag board.
---Reply to 8/2 "Sudden Impulse" and 8/8 "Pills"---
I'll tell you what I told my best friends years ago, because you're that important to me. There's no use in you trying to commit suicide. Because if you do, when you get to heaven I'll be waiting for you. And I'll kick you right back down here. So it's not even worth the pain of trying.
And don't think I won't do it.
---Reply to 8/8 "Not the Point"---
*nod* Yup, I know exactly what you mean when you say that.
---Reply to 8/16 "I'm Confused"---
A) You will always Love your first. Even if you find Mr. Perfect and live happily ever after, you will always love this guy.
B) Half of what you're confused about (from what I've read) is because you don't have anything to compare to. Don't go for a fling, but definately look for another relationship for the time being. Only after that will you be be able to answer your questions. If you don't, you most definately will be settling for this guy, because you never found out if being with him actually was not settling.
C) It will not be unfair to him. He's the one making you wait. It's unfair to yourself not not seek your needed answers in the meantime.
Friday, August 15, 2003
Did you know my friend,
you mean the world to me,
that I worry and fuss,
when I'm not sure that you're safe or happy?
slightly crazy, I know,
but true none the less.
Did you know my friend,
that I think the world of you?
That your kindness, strength and goodness,
set you high above the rest?
Did you know my friend,
That I care as much as I do,
for a person I've never met,
in a land I've never been to?
But I do.
Wednesday, August 13, 2003
Wednesday, August 06, 2003
Today, is a day, that Needs a Post. About what, I'm not sure, but it needs one on this blog about Something. So, without further ado,
If something not true
Nothing is something
if nothing is new
if New is nothing,
and something is old,
Then what is the point,
Yes, a waste of space, Jen please don't be peeved at me, but today was a day to post something, or a nothing that was something, and I couldn't come up w/ anything interesting.
Saturday, August 02, 2003
...was born around 9:30pm CDT two months early by emergency c-section. He had a pluse for only a few minutes. His mother didn't come out of the anestetic in time to hold him alive.
The man (older than teenage) who caused his death was caught by the police in Illinois (where the accident occured) and given three tickets: one for driving recklessly in inclimate weather; one for not having insurance; one for not having a liscence. He was then let go.
Jordan Alexander is survived by an older sister Kyanna - 2 years old, his mother - 22 years old, his father 26 years old, his uncle - 17 years old, five grandparents, one great-grandfather, and a plethora of other relatives (aunt/uncle(s), great aunts and uncles, cousins, cousins once removed, a cousin twice removed,...). He is already sorely missed.
I need to invent a transporter. Or learn to teleport. Or get a plane and a pilots liscense, if I want to be rather mundane about it. Because when you want to be there for one of your dearest friends, and can't because of distance, it sucks. It Blows. You can't hug that person, and it's hard to convey thoughts and emotions via IM or phone that simply sitting next to the person and watching their facial expressions. You can not say ANYTHING and just Physically be there, and be doing more than anything you can say at a distance. It's worse when your ability to be there even at a distance is impared by stupid crap. One of my dearest friends is upset and hurting right now, and I can't do as much as I'd like, as much as I think she'd like or needs. And it Blows, and bites. I'm sorry that I can't do more to help you, to support you, that I can't be as good a friend as you deserve, but I'm fairly certain you know I'm doing my best. *Hugs*I'm here if you need me, even if we can't to talk or anything when you need me. I'm sorry. *HUGS* This just means that several things have to move up on my lists.